Anxiety Attacks

my anxiety and stress has ramped up to from the pandemic and a traumatic event that happened 4 years ago, and another death in the family. I just can’t get over the traumatic event that happened, it was near my home, I go out everyday because of it, I would like to move but my husband doesn’t want to move. I stress eat but but A1c is still good, I walk everyday at the mall, it’s a pain because I have to drive a ways to get there. I’ve been dealing with vertigo not related to my diabetes, and rotor cuff injury to, I go to physio for it but it hurts more, this is the second time having a rotor cuff injury but it was in my other shoulder, I had to slam my brakes on in my vehicle because the driver in front of me stopped suddenly and I almost hit him I was quite always from his car, from arms were straight out try to stop, and really hurt my shoulder. I just can’t catch a break from life ugh! I have ptsd from the event that happened 4 years ago, so live can be very difficult.

I don’t have a doctor he retired and no one to replace him because there’s a doctor shortage. He told me I have PTSD, I already have depression and anxiety from having diabetes, the pandemic has made me more stressed and anxious, my husband is no support and just doesn’t get what I’m going through, the trauma comes from his brother he took his life, it happened near our home he lived down the hill from us, I see the shop everyday where he did it. I’ve been seeing a councillor for a few years for my stress that I have from living with diabetes, it was for marriage council long but my husband quit going. So I go by myself now, and I find it not helping, so much has happened since my diagnosis of diabetes. I don’t think I was depressed I think I was distressed from living with this disease. Then all these other things that have happened since my mom died, my brother in laws suicide, my other brother in-law died of cancer recently, my moms husband died last September. It’s way to much, and no real support with it all from anyone.

Thank you for your advice, it’s been pretty hard with all these things happening, I feel so alone in everything. I miss my mom so much, she was a good support, and my doctor who retired was another support going through all the things you go through with grief, losing my mom. I cried so much in his office dealing with diabetes and losing my mom, he was very empathetic when I lost my mom. He said to me in all my years of practice I’ve never seen someone go through so much. He was a great support for me when I didn’t get it from other family members. My husband is supportive to a point, but he’s going through his older brothers passing which was in April, so I don’t bring things up to him because he’s going through a lot to, he also has Type 2 diabetes diagnosed last year. I deal with depression and anxiety. I’ve seen a doctor through walk in clinic to receive my A1c results. But still don’t have a permanent doctor and it’s really stressing me out plus I miss my old doctor. I want one like him, who shows you kindness and takes the time with you. I don’t see that happening. Right now my support is my councillor but I don’t think she really understands the emotional side of diabetes, she is a very nice person but sometimes I feel rushed through because I have so many things that are bothering me, you only get an hour with an counsellor it’s not enough time. I’m from Canada and the Province I live in there is a doctor shortage. And our Health Care system is crumbling, wait lists are very very long for everything. It’s scary when you have a health condition, and with Covid out there still it’s twice as scary and not having a doctor. Right now we’re in the middle of trying to sell my mom and Rays ( moms husband ) it’s bringing up alot of sadness for me, it makes me cry, and miss her all the more. I’ve been crying off and on it’s like losing her all over again. The grief I carry of my mom is so hard and lonely without her. It’s coming up 7 years in Nov. and it seems like yesterday some days. I miss my best friend, that’s what it was with mom and I she was such a warm loving person. I don’t mean to go on and on but it helps to get it out. Thanks for listening.