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By LORY1234

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Hi my name is Lorrie I'm 59 years old. I developed diabetes in 2006 but I reversed it and now I am on medication (metformin). It started again with my BP rising due to weaning off the medication. I didn't know the consequences.

Managing grief and fear

I had just lost my husband, and before that my only child, my mom, my dad, and all my aunts and uncles in 5.5 years. After being diagnosed I weighed 110 pounds. I was put on metformin and now weigh 92 pounds, almost 2 years later. I cannot put on weight no matter what I do. I am scared of dying! My A1c was 6.6 and I got the flu after that so my blood sugars have been going over 200. I'm so confused, I emailed the doctor and she is no help. She said metformin does not make you loose that amount of weight. I did a colonoscopy and the results came back fine. I haven't done my pap in 8 years. I totally forgot to keep up with it due to all the deaths in my family. I feel so frustrated! I'm alone and depressed but I eat! I'm feeling scared.

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DonnaFA Community Admin
Hi <inline-mention username="LORY1234" user-id="4258460"/>, I'm glad you are here! There is tons of information, understanding and empathy aplenty here. A certified diabetes educator may be more accessible and leave you feeling less alone. What are the things that are scaring you? Anything specific, or not having answers? -Warmly, Donna (team member)
1. LORY1234 Member
 <inline-mention username="DonnaFA" user-id="4816661"/> everything scares me! I have been obsessed with this. My sugars were doing okay. But now they are staying at 180. Unless I take a 3rd pill in the pm then they will go down. Metformin. I'm only 92 pounds. Underweight. I was 110 when this started again. I eat carbs but it's not making me gain weight. I have a heart issue too! Left bundle branch block. I have an appt on Tuesday about my sugars. Sick of metformin I wish life was different. . No one with diabetes understands. I always feel sick. I don't sleep. 
2. GabbyFormica Community Admin
 <inline-mention username="LORY1234" user-id="4258460"/>, It sounds like you are going through a lot right now. I'm so sorry for the anxiety, pain and discomfort you have been experiencing. I hope you are able to get some clarity in your appointment this week. Everyone has their own unique diabetes journey. While your journey is different from others, please know that your feelings are valid and something many have experienced in their own way. Anxiety in particular is something several of our patient leaders and community members have shared their experiences with: <a href='https://type2diabetes.com/living/anxiety-loss-progression' target='_blank'>https://type2diabetes.com/living/anxiety-loss-progression</a>. Please know that you are not alone. We hear you. Sending warm thoughts your way, Gabby (team member)
CommunityMemberc4b470 Member
I am still struggling with all this. Not easy at all.
1. GabbyFormica Community Admin
 <inline-mention username="CommunityMemberc4b470" user-id="6708429"/>, Diabetes is complex and can be cruel. It's hard to find the right treatment plan for you, make lifestyle adjustments, stay on top of monitoring your levels and sometimes still finding that things aren't going the way you hoped. We hear you. It's a struggle. Gabby (team member)
Diane Talbert Moderator & Contributor
Hello <inline-mention username="CommunityMemberc4b470" user-id="6708429"/> , I get it. I had T2D for 30 years. I still have it but was able to get off of all medications. It's not easy at all. As <inline-mention username="GabbyFormica" user-id="4217090"/> said, it really is finding the right treatment and making those lifestyle changes. This was super hard for me. I LOVED food, but I did it. Let us know how you are doing. Thanks for sharing. Diane (Team Member)
Lori.Foster Community Admin
Hi Lorrie (<inline-mention username="LORY1234" user-id="4258460"/>). It has been a while since you posted. I wanted to check in and see how you are doing. Have you ever seen an endocrinologist? Some of our members who couldn't keep weight on discovered they actually had Type 1 diabetes. Only insulin will help someone with Type 1, so their medications were not helping. It might be worth looking into if you are still struggling. Here is an article that might interest you: <a href='https://type2diabetes.com/living/types-misdiagnosed' target='_blank'>https://type2diabetes.com/living/types-misdiagnosed</a>. Thinking of you and wishing you the best. - Lori (Team Member)